Back when Jonas was born, I wrote this post about having to make the decision to get my tubes tied. I know a lot of people have read that story and been touched by it. I know that in writing it, I was trying to convince myself that I made a good decision and that it was the only way.
But it broke my heart.
At that time, I wasn't ready to say "we'll always be a family of 4". I still dreamt of one day holding a baby girl in my arms. My body missed having a baby inside. I thought I'd one day long for more.
And then I got to know Jonas. I mean, I really got to know him. And I learned that that boy is work... lots of work. So, my baby fever got put on hold.
Then I started to watch him and Marco together. The way they love each other. The way they play together. They're two peas in a pod. A match made in heaven.
And I felt...
Complete
Recently, I've felt more secure in my decision than ever before. I've learned in the past few weeks that THREE of my friends are pregnant. And all I feel is happiness for them. Not a hint of jealousy.
Where before I used to feel an ache in my body... a yearning for another. Now, all I want to say, "so happy it's you... and not me". That's a sure sign.
I know that the decision I made... although hasty and forced upon me... was the right one after all. God gave me a great gift... I'm content. I know that this is exactly the way my family was always meant to be. We were always meant to have a Table for 4.
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4 comments:
yay, glad it worked out for you :-)
I am looking forward to having that feeling. I really want 3 and I know Lee won't go for any more than that, so I'm hoping that after 3 I get that same feeling! I'm definitely ready to sell off all the baby gear, that's for sure! haha
Thank you for this post. I'm having difficulty making a decision for myself and our family. My husband is going for a consultation in February to discuss a vasectomy.
I feel you on this! I also had to make the decision to get my tubes tied. I am complete, and the occasional baby fever I get isn't really baby fever at all...just "omg a squishy newborn! Squeee!" I can't picture myself pregnant again, nor can I see us with more kids. We are definitely complete with two :)
Thank you for sharing this. I am not quite as at peace with our decision yet {hubs got a vasectomy when Baby C was 5 weeks old} but I am starting to get there and know this is the right thing for our family
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